Ah, well,....life goes on...

Well, here I am, months later, still going forward with my weight loss. I've lost another 4 lbs (254) since I last posted. Yes, slower, but still progressing down the road. I've been eating some sweets along the way and it's taken my focus off my goals. As of April 27th, I've had a conscience decision to cut out all sweets for a month. Small goals, yes, but it's a good one. After a month, perhaps, longer. I've made a decision to go back to TOPS. It will help keep me motivated and on task. I've made a goal of walk a mile a day in the month of May. Wish me luck,....until next time!

Ups & Downs....

Ya know how sometimes you hear things and know things but at some point you REALLY get it? That is what I've had with my weight losss. I had the revelation to know that I will ALWAYS an unhealthy relationship with food. A battle I will always have to wage. Somedays it goes really well and I do a great job, others not so much. I do have this fear of going back and I believe that keeps me on the right road most days. The weight loss has slowed a bit, mostly due to not walking, it being icey & winter out is the reason.

On Feb 1st, I have lost another 2 lbs. Down to 258. It coming off slow is fine, it is a lifestyle now.

Hello,...it's been awhile. I'm still going strong. I'm down to 261 now. 10 lbs since my last post here.

As of........

October 9th...my weight is 271.

New Weight.......

278.4 as of Sept 28th. YEAH!

This means I've lost close to 100 lbs. I'm not sure what weight I started at but it was over 350 lbs.

A Few Things I Know...............................

Note: This is an on going list, it will be updated when things resonate in me.


1. The battle is won or lost in the head.
2. My thinking is skewed when thinking about food. Therefore, I must think like a thin person.
3. No one can make you get to the point when your ready to start the journey. You only get here when your ready.
4. If I can do this....so *CAN* YOU!!!!

New weight loss!

I weighted this past Monday. I was down another 8 lbs. YES!!!

I know that since I've started walking in the evenings, it has helped.

You are in control! Really, you are. Not the food!!!

You say, you don't feel like it?! Stop focusing on your feelings! They lie, you can't be controlled by them. Remember you're in control of what you feel, think and do. So many of us are emotional eaters. I never was...some of you are thinking, ...sure, right. It's so true, however, I ate away so much of everyday. I WAS a grazer. Eating many times a day, eating whatever was good at the time.

Take back the control of what you put into your mouth. You DO have power. You are stronger than you think you are. One day at a time. One victory at a time. Resist the urge. Don't allow that piece of pie, cake or bag of chips have control. Realize you're in control!

Who needs diet food? Not you or me!

 I don't buy any 'diet' food. The billion diet industry knows they have people who are desperate to loose, so they lure us into thinking we can't live without that prepackaged dinner. . I say forget them. Those dinners are full of sodium, carbs. And for what you get, totally not worth the price.

This is what I do.................

Eat like a thin person!  Smaller portions, no seconds! The goal is not to be hungry. Not to stuff yourself.

When I make dinner for my family and I eat a portion of whatever we are having.  Take last night as an example. I made a hamburger meal, threw in some potatoes and dished it up on a bed of spinach lettuce. It wasn't diet food, but when you control your portions, you can eat most anything. Including sweets, just not everyday. When you have been doing this for a while, you become stronger and can resist sweets. Trust me on this because my husband loves to bake, he does quite often. We have sweets around the house a lot of the time. Tonight for dinner, I had a smaller slice of berry pie, some no sugar added ice cream and a banana. Maybe once a week I'll eat something like that and not have anything else.  It's unrealistic to think that you'll never have anything sweet ever again. Plus, when you say things like that, don't you want it even more? It's a "I can't have it, so I want it more kind of thing". Thin people don't cut off certain foods? No. We don't have to either. The key is to eat some, not all and not everyday.

Two side views of me. One in April 09 and other in August 09.

Can you tell which one was first?

Where I am now......

I weighted at my Doc's office on August 17th, 2009. I was shocked to see 294 lbs on the scale. Delighted.  Really. To the average person 294 lbs is still a lot. Well, in reality, it is...but to me it's a milestone. I haven't weighed this amount since before I had my kids. That was 14 yrs ago!  So, celebrate with me! 

Eating Right....It's all in your head!

Well, this is a gotcha kind of thing. It REALLY is in your head, your mind & will. The battle is won there!!  It's within you to make the change.

We have to determine to DO IT. Knowing forever is a long time but what is the other result? Not good, could be a stroke, heart attack or early death.

 You CAN conquer the demon(s) that tell you can 'can't' do it. They lie. We are strong willed, let that spill over to the area of eating. We eat because our bodies need fuel, not to 'have a party in our mouthes', as Dr. Phil says.



I knew I HAD to do it and forever this time, no going back. I want to be around for my kids. The kick in the teeth for me was Drew & Cyndi's friend's parents death. That started my journey to knowing I HAD to work it out and now. My journey ends when they stick me in the grave. This is it. Forever.


I am determined. Period. You can do it too. Those chips that are crying out to you are not worth the satisfaction knowing you can look them in the bag..er..eye and tell them, get behind me Satan.

This blog is a work in progress..................

Just like my weight loss journey.......      So, bear with me as I get it up and running.

This blog will be about what I've learned, the goals I have and any helpful tips I feel helped me that I'll pass along. So, grab a chair, get a glass of water and let's dish about weight loss.

First enrty------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

I started this journey in May of 2009. My best recollections it was on May 6th.   I'm not entirely sure what I weighed when I started but it was over 350 lbs.  I still have a way to go but the journey has started and I don't plan on stopping til I reach my goal.

What is my goal, you ask?  It's simple, really, just to be healthy, get off all meds and to be  active with my family. Not merely sitting on the sidelines of my life but joining in and being an active participate.  The last goal is superficial...and it's just to feel good about what I look like in my clothes.....or naked!  *smile*